Gone missing

Sorry, didn’t mean to not write, I’ve been doing my own thing. More or less had to deal with some personal issues, and try to console my wife who was I’ll at the same time. For some reason, today I feel as if when i am writing this, a narrative in the background speaks at the same time that I type. I wouldn’t really say in a Morgan freeman voice or anything, but its quite cool.


Call me crazy.

Anyway, on to better things, I think I finally found the true meaning of life. When i was younger I thought getting the living shit beat out of me everyday was my sole purpose, and it took me till I was around, well lets just say older to finally figure out what the true meaning of life really is. Do you think for one second in your daily activities, ” What if i had been like ____________________ ( naturally, insert name here) would I still have been bullied” and the answer is yes. I dealt with so many bullies, that for me not to get chased, shoved, tripped, punched, name called, teased, I think you understand by now, anyways for me not to go thru all that in a day, it was going to be even worse tommorow.

But yet all thru the pain, the verbal abuse the assault, I stood up to it the best way I could, and all because I wanted to be the popular kid. So in my daily activities I got to thinking to what my interpretation of the meaning of life is.

And I quote myself.

“Do not be a follower of someone bigger than you, be the one who stands out.”

You can be a vi…


You can be a victim of cancer, or a survivor of cancer. It’s a mindset.
Dave Pelzer

I don’t know alot about Cancer, i’m sure if i did alot of research, i could find out alot more. Unfortunately, i don’t feel a need to research something that is already inside my body. How does it affect me? Well how does it affect all of us? 

When i was younger, i lost my grandmother to Cancer. She was so full of life, she was happy, and the best cook a grandmother could ever be. I wasn’t sure at the time what was going on, but i had a loss, and was too young to know how to deal with it. How does one deal with it? I cannot begin to imagine the pain they suffer, nor can i fathom the fact that they themselves know, that at some point this evil will completely take over.

To me its a poison that you could never imagine having. Alot of people that do not suffer from it claim that depression is the biggest side effect. But is it really? I see families always by the bedside, i see nothing but love, and compassion for the ones who suffer. When im depressed, i want my family around me. At that point nothing is in my mind, other than actual, true love. Actual true compassion. So what is it that we can do to help one that is suffering, without being depressed ourselves?

I am going to shed some light.

Simply listening to someone with cancer may sound easy, but is often times surprisingly hard. We want to make things better. We want to fix things. But a listening ear is often what “helps” the most. Let your loved one express their feelings, even if those feelings make you uncomfortable. You can be fairly certain that if your loved one brings up a difficult topic, such as dying, they have been thinking about it. Allow them the opportunity to have the comfort of sharing. Don’t judge, don’t interrupt, and listen with your eyes and body, not only your ears.

2. Deal With Your Own Feelings First

As caregivers, we are faced with our own set of difficult emotions and fears. What will happen to my loved one? Will they have pain? Will they live? What will happen to me? How will my life change? Try to face your own fears first, so you are truly able to listen attentively.

3. Say “I Love You” Often

No matter how much your actions express your love, it is not a substitute for hearing it. Affirm them. Praise their efforts. Even if the only thing they can do after a round of chemotherapy is brush their teeth, let them know they are special and valued.

4. Lend a Hand

For those with lung cancer, life goes on despite running for treatment and side effects like fatigue. Bills accumulate. Dust gathers. Something as simple as offering to help clean house for an hour is often deeply appreciated. Offer help and make it specific. “Can I come over Wednesday at 2 PM and wash a few windows?” Don’t wait for your loved one to ask for help.

5. Go With Them to Appointments

Attending appointments with your loved one can express your caring in many ways. Hospitals and clinics can be frightening places and waiting can be excruciating. Bring a notepad. Ask questions. Take notes. But make sure to allow your loved one to make their own decisions.

6. Add a Touch of Humor

Humor can be the best medicine. Be sensitive to the times that your loved one needs to express grief, but be ready to laugh and smile with them as well.

7. Respect Their Need to Be Alone

Sometimes our loved ones with cancer claim they want to be alone so they don’t bother us, but other times, they truly want to be alone. Monitor other visitors as well. Does your loved one feel that he or she has to entertain them, but does not want to offend them and ask them to go? If so, gently let these other visitors know when your loved one appears tired and thank them for visiting.

8. Be a Gatherer – Of Information

Having information appears to ease some of the anxiety those with cancer face. Research your loved ones disease online, ask your cancer center for information, take notes, and ask questions at doctors’ appointments.

9. Don’t Hide Things From Them or Other Loved Ones

Our loved ones with lung cancer need an honest assessment of their condition to make decisions that best fit their needs – even if that honesty is painful. Be honest with other family members, and especially children. We want to protect our children from the reality of what their parent or grandparent may be facing, but children often imagine the worst. Even if the prognosis is poor, sharing with them honestly gives them the opportunity to begin their grieving and express their love.

10. Help Them Find Support

No matter how much someone without cancer can empathize, talking to someone facing the same challenges can be invaluable for someone facing cancer. Ask your cancer center for information on support groups. Many online support groups are available as well. If your loved one is not interested in a support group, perhaps your oncologist or cancer center can find someone with a similar cancer who would be willing to visit one-on-one.

11. Be Willing to Bend

Family members often have many different opinions when a loved one has cancer, based on their own life experiences. Friction often develops, and hurt and resentment can follow. Your loved one does not want to be the source of family conflict. Try to hear each other’s viewpoints, no matter how dissimilar they may seem. Keep in mind that all of you have a common goal; you all want to support your loved one.

12. Take Care of Yourself

Eating healthy, trying to get enough sleep, and maintaining a balance in your own life, will help you provide the support your loved one needs. Check out further tips for caregivers to nurture yourself as you care for others.

I dont have Cancer. Nor do I wish it upon anyone, but feel free to help someone who does. 1 in 4 people suffering from Cancer, does not have a family to love, and support them. Im not perfect, but i do know, the first thing someone wants when all is at its worst, is someone to love them.

Thank You 

Keith Hughes

“To be yourself…

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

I’m not famous. I wake up every morning, and have the same routine that everyone else has. I’m a dreamer, as i get ready for work i assume full responsibility for the things that are going to happen today. I also am not perfect. But all that said, i have thoughts. Sometimes they are over the top, but most of the time i laugh at the things that i come up with, i guess i amuse myself. Life hasn’t always been easy, and I’m sure everyone has a story that will top mine. But i am alive, and thankful that i can enjoy this little place called sanity. I’m not crazy, i just don think like you do.

Ive learned along the way, that even if i can make one person smile a day, that my life is worth every thought i put into it. I’m amazing, i am strong. I’m not really a leader as per say, but not a follower either. I do my own thing, because I’m sick of being judged about everything i do. For every action, there is a reaction, and i don’t face the reaction if i have a choice. Mostly because i care too much about what people think of me, i read too deep into reactions towards me, be it big or small.

I want to share with you, my stories, my passions, my life, my imperfections.

Keith Hughes